I haven't written much here recently. There's been a reasonable amount of activity on my RSS feed, and I do keep up with it, but on a slower schedule. I don't think I could maintain the same routine as before, even if it only took up 20 minutes of my day.
Part of this has been down to me resuming journaling. I picked this up in the middle of 2025, and it helped me flesh out thoughts into relatively simple wording. There was a lot going on at the time, and looking back on the notes is fascinating. My prose is unromantic and direct, and even this reamins an interesting read.
I dropped the journaling for a few months, then resumed it in June of this year. The paragraphs were much longer this time. I had piled up thoughts on a lot of my close connections, some of the projects I was working on, and too much had accumulated in my mind. Getting even straightforward words out of my head helped to free it up somewhat. I was able to re-appreciate so many of the great people and things in my life.
One downside of this is that there's less headspace to put trains of thought into Sandy's Palace. Some of these thought processes, or projects, or emotions, weren't appropriate for this medium anyway. But by nature of being able to easily scrawl thoughts away, there's less energy available for putting a big delightful rant on this blog.
The other reason for less posting here has become more obvious to me in the last month: I am shockingly burnt out and disillusioned. I've put so much time, energy, and enthusiasm into projects that cannot take off, because nobody outside of me will give me the time of day where it counts. Trying to focus on me is a fool's game - I wouldn't know what to do with personal free time if I granted myself any more of it. So I threw myself at worthwhile goals that fizzled out as inevitably as the fucking tide.
I don't plan on changing my approach for now. It validates me so much to have meaningful work and achievements completely ignored because I'm not popular enough. Plus, it gives me good material to journal about.